Lady Sisyphus (ladysisyphus) wrote in irchurch,
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Friends spending too much damn time in the hospital. I knew there'd be three over this week or so for forthcoming babies (two of whom are now here! one of whom is Extremely Imminent), but three other friends are now there for less joyous reasons.
My heart and mind are totally scattered and my prayer list fell behind the desk.

- my friends who are losing or have recently lost their parents
- my friends who have new babies
- my friends who have beautiful children who aren't 'average' and are struggling because of it
- me, because i have a few last hurdles to clear on my way to getting on top of a really hard to handle mood disorder (without medication, no less, as i can't take it) and i'm having a hard time getting over them
And Jabez called on the God of Israel saying, "Oh, that You would bless me indeed, and enlarge my territory, that Your hand be with me, and that You would keep me from evil, that I may not cause pain!" So God granted him what he requested.

--1 Chronicles 4:10
My very bad and very hidden mental state, that seems to be on the edge of a very real breakdown.
The problems and pain of my best friends.
My grandparents and their health problems.
Finals week, for everyone.
The alcoholism and drug problems of several of my friends.
For my family, coming to terms with the death of my grandfather.

For myself, struggling with the same, on top of trying to manage anxiety that seems to have taken a turn towards depression. This is the second family member I've lost in recent months (first was my fiance's mother in December), and I'm trying to plan our wedding, and much work-related upheaval. And I'm having problems scheduling doctor appointments to help me with all this this week. I'm feeling terribly overwhelmed by it all, even after making progress on the wedding this past weekened and adjusting my meds to try to compensate for it.
One of my good friends has a horrible shoulder injury since October, and it's going to get much worse before it gets better. She's already in constant pain and her doctors are screwing her around, and she's leaning on me so much already and I just need the strength to get through my own life and be there for her to support her, and for her to get better.
for me: being able to write again
courage in my job hunt/a job
courage in my doctor hunt
a friend

for my friends: finals week
a baby for L, if she really does want one

for my parents: the grace to accept that which they cannot understand about me, and vice versa for me

My grandma, as her heart slows down.
Friend S. and his wife of less than a year, as he heads to Iraq tomorrow.
My sister and BIL to find a good place and good friends in NE, and a new job for her to match his.